i liked you

Monday, December 21, 2015

you know what, as i scanned my bible earlier, i saw some folded paper notes that are between the pages and it's me asking 'you' with God, 'praying for you' kinda stuff. it's kinda creepy, i know.. okay, fine, it's sweet. and it made me realized something, actually i knew it before then, but i see the clearer view, and it made me think   how can someone made me fall hard like this that i could make poems, prayers and others stuff? obviously, it just really proves how i liked you a lot. i hate to say it.


i liked you more than anything. i liked you more than well-cooked hot dogs, i liked you more than how i like to go to Paris, i liked you more than the 48 pcs classic colour pencils of Faber Castell, i liked you more than a vanilla flavored ice cream, i liked you more than i used to like to have a lot of whiteboard markers as a child, i liked you more than McDonald's fries (gahd, how could i?), i like you more than how i like to learn how to sing and dance professionally haha, i like you more than fancy notebooks, i liked you more than a melon-scented perfume, i like you more than a creamy hot coffee, i liked you more than having a piece of Nike shoes (geez), i liked you more than a good morning in the province and the its air breeze. I liked you more than i liked someone. well, i didn't like you more than good music and good books though. bc i love good music and good books, just so you know. i liked you sooo badly, but i don't want to say and come up with the idea that i 'loved' you, bc i don't. just try to imagine it, at the age of 16, it's kinda weird to think that i already loved someone or fell in love with someone, it's clearly probable and possible, i know, but i just don't want to think that i "loved" you and i just don't want to say it, like  straight from my mouth. maybe for me, love will always have a deeper meaning, and when i say deeper, it's deeper   deeper than what concept of the word deep is for you. deeper than the world's deepest pools, deeper than Marianas trench, deeper than the deepest part of the ocean, deeper than my deepest thoughts in the bathroom, deeper than what i felt for you (hope it makes sense haha). and i expected a lot from it when it comes my way. and when it comes, hopefully it'll, i wanna be fully prepared and ready. so basically, this isn't  just what i expected. i expect more. so get your sht together bc it wasn't love.

                                                                                                                                                                   
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PS. 4 days before Christmas, yay!

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